I thank him who has given me strength, Christ Jesus our Lord, because he judged me faithful, appointing me to his service, though formerly I was a blasphemer, persecutor, and insolent opponent. But I received mercy because I had acted ignorantly in unbelief, and the grace of our Lord overflowed for me with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus. The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost. But I received mercy for this reason, that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display his perfect patience as an example to those who were to believe in him for eternal life. 1 Timothy 1:12-16
Not that I compare myself with Paul, I don’t. I do however identify with having a clear understanding that I am the worst of all sinners. Being able to access my heart and mind I know that I am more wicked than anyone outside my head can imagine. It is His grace and mercy, for me and you, that keeps me in check. And for that I am eternally grateful. I know that one day the war over my heart will end and I know that God, through Christ, will be victorious. Yet, everyday I continue to do battle, receive wounds, am crippled and sometimes have victory. Ultimately, I will have complete victory, but here in the Shadowlands it’s not even close.